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deliriumcrowI am, indeed, and idiot. I woke up in the morning at the usual time, wanting, of course, ever more cuddling. I hate when I can't have what I want, but I guess that's what after class is for? And got on the bus at the usual time, with all the bags I need for a usual Monday at school. And never thought to look at the college website, to note that this is *not* a usual day at classes. They don't start today until 12.20. Bugger. I could have gone home, but then half an hour after that, I'd be back on the same bus, going back the way I'd just come. So now here I sit in the science library, mentally kicking myself. This would happen. I'm still carrying my portfolio and art box, with nowhere to leave them, and they do get in the way. But at least I have the library.... It's something at least.
I have to call New Paltz, sometime this morning. Probably before I go to lunch, I just have to remember to get the number for it.... Bleh. I really want an answer today. I need to know what I'll be doing with my life in the next few months. I fi don't get in, I reapply, when I have to final transcripts from this semester, and hope that works. Because if not, I'm screwed. I put all my hope into this, and am moving counting on it, and don't even know if it's going to happen. Stupid really. You know, I think I feel like doing it now, just so I have somethng to do, and some knowledge of what the outcome will be. And then I can post it or something, once I know for sure. Sure that's my motivation. It has nothing at all to do with fear or nervousness. Or anything else that looks like that. Right.
I have to call New Paltz, sometime this morning. Probably before I go to lunch, I just have to remember to get the number for it.... Bleh. I really want an answer today. I need to know what I'll be doing with my life in the next few months. I fi don't get in, I reapply, when I have to final transcripts from this semester, and hope that works. Because if not, I'm screwed. I put all my hope into this, and am moving counting on it, and don't even know if it's going to happen. Stupid really. You know, I think I feel like doing it now, just so I have somethng to do, and some knowledge of what the outcome will be. And then I can post it or something, once I know for sure. Sure that's my motivation. It has nothing at all to do with fear or nervousness. Or anything else that looks like that. Right.
